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Chan | 25th Mar 2008, 12:37 AM | 一般
3/23/2008 - 10:38PM


Everything gets more confusing as we grow up.  Im glad we can still talk like we did before, since we havent done that for awhile.  But after knowing n hearing it, i dont really know if i should be happy or sad.  Every time we have these long talks, im always happy afterward to know that you are still here to hear me, and that we both still have eachother, and a trusting bond between us.  But this time, should i be happy that we talked like that again? or should i be sad that we did.  I understand that now, we/otherpeople are all growing up in their own way and starting their own life, so i understand that everyone have their own secrets and i guess a own way of doing things.  So this time, i didnt bother asking about anything, even though inside of me, i have so much questions to ask.  And this time, i realize i didnt act like before, trying to tell you wht to do, and wht not to do,  all i did was sit, and listen to wht you had to say.  Even when i wanted to know more, and to have no secrets between u/the people i care,i know that people do have their own secrets kept away from me, and from the people around them.  When i think of it, i dont really have secrets at all, to keep away from the people i care most.  Im a person who doesnt like to say wht i feel or think about, n i know that sometimes the people who care about me have hard times understanding me.  Even once, there was someone who asked me why im like that, n why im keeping so much secrets from them.  But to be honest, i just want to tell them straight out that i dont have secrets to keep away from them.  I just have difficulty saying everything straight out.  People might think i have tons of secrets kept away from them, but i think they are the ones who are keeping many secrets away from me.  And so, when you finally told me something that you couldve told me 3 years ago, i felt kinda happy, knowing that you still share your secrets with me.  On the other hand... i realize that you couldve told me that 3 years ago, not now, but 3 years ago, and you didnt.  Sometimes, i really wonder, in this world... is there someone that wont keep any secrets from me? Even the closet people i have right now arent as close as i thought they were.  I dont know wht to think anymore.... sigh* i really really wish that i can just be a kid again..... life back then was so simple.  All we had to think about was how to have fun wif friends, and the food we got to eat.  Now we have to think so much... relationships wif the people around you, job, schoolwork, money, the past and the future. 

 

 

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