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December 27th, 2008 - Saturday - 11:36pm

Hihi! i know i havent been updating here for awhile now... so ive decided to update.. since i get really tired trying to write out everything!

so, 4 more days till 2009. wow.
i still remember last new years eve... i was sooo excited for 2008... and guess what now? 2008 is done and finished.  hmm its kinda hard remember the first half of 2008, but it's probably becuz i didnt find it any much happier. 

 

it was my last winter semester at UC. who wouldve known i would leave UC? i really liked UC for what?  actually, did i really like UC?  anyways, last semester was sad for me.. i wanted to stay yet i wanted to leave.  i wanted to stay wif my friends, stay wif the familiar area.  but i wanted to leave for a new start, for a better start, and for a new area.  haha what is this?

summer.. as i remembered was pretty fun.  i didnt take spring/summer school, cuz i already had a feeling that i wasnt going to go back to UC. i was going to take japanese as i remembered.  hmm.. i went and did alot of normal childhood stuff.. haha like just a random day at bowness park, biking, badminton... and just walking around and enjoying the fresh air. and then we had icecream.... yumyum. durian flavored icecream! haha and then... i drove alot then.. i got my drivers! hahaha and... i went watch my favourtie hero, batman wif vince! hmm.. went shopping alot... and as i remembered, summer was soo hot! it was like the hottest summers i ever experienced! melt melt.. emotion overall, summer was pretty free... freedom all the way.. and it was the end of a... hmm.... unhappy lifetime? hmm well not exactly unhappy.. but i wont say it was the best times of my life. and so.. summer ended my sadness!

i was working at stampede.. if you havent read my past post. after stampede, my quick temporary job, i applied to symcor.

symcor....
there i met u. was it a good thing? who knows!  it started fast, and ended fast. my moms right again, she told me if things started fast, it would end just as fast. right on.  i dont know what to say.  i guess.... even though it all happened in such a short time, it was memorable? it was fun? it was .. just alot to me. it meant alot.  i lied to myself, to my closest frds that i was not into u. but i guess in the end, i was. everything u did at that moment didnt seem like anything.. but when i look back at it, it is alot, its everything. sometimes i think i should be the one being sorry... but then there are many times when i think u should be the one being sorry. u left me there hanging suddenly...... what did i do? anyways. who knows. maybe... u just met someone better than me.

after u left work, basically we stopped seeing eachother, and/or talked to eachother. it was a ending for u working, and for us.  

i left 2 months after he left.  when he left, he was strongly disagreeing that i still worked there. but i didnt want to show others that i would do something for u. hahaha. sigh. but i did like the job.. it was good pay. until my parents got really mad at me for always working. then i decided to quit.

during the times i worked at symcor, i also worked at club monaco. what can i say?! it was a great job.. and it still is!! cant complain.

 

so... after awhile. i knew he just left me. that was the main point. left me for a girl or for whatever other reasons, i didnt see it.. i just saw HE LEFT ME. that was all it mattered.  so i went back to my life.. i was trying to be what he want me to be when i knew what he wanted. but i guess after everything.... it was like "whatever chan.... u dont have to do that. do what he DOESNT want u to do" and that was what i went for. i went out alot... hmm study ok.. didnt study as much.  i even went to a whiskey event wifout knowing anyone basically. i was just in need to show him that i will and can do what he dont want me to do. 

 

and guess what? at the party, there i met one of his good frds.
the number 2 u. haha. it was very random.. he stood by me pretty much the whole nite. staring, not talking much. then by the end, he offers me his jacket. then a ride.. then offers to send me songs.. then asked my num.. then started txting right when he got home about his msn.. then talk everyday from then. except today. hmm then halloween pubcrawl.. then now! wow. random.

its schooooool time!
at first, i was pretty unsure.. unsure about everything. unsure about the people in SAIT.. and unsure about the classes, the locations... and just everything.. and their food! 

what i was unsured about, became nothing! nothing to be unsured about! i found my ways very fast, i met my classmates soon enough, and the classmates stayed the same for all my classes, some teachers were nice, hmm and i guess nothing was hard. not as hard anyway!  i didnt meet alot of people, but i met one good frd. sometimes its funny how what i say, she thinks so too.

and and..... whatelse? so... the school year continued.  studied... eat... shopped. hahaha the days were like that. food was a big part of it.

 

during exams, i was sooooo stressed. i dont think ive ever been this stressed... but wow. it was amazing. everyday wake up at 6am and sleeping at 1/2/3am... but im pretty happy wif my exam marks! mwahaha. thanks chan. for doing good. for finally realizing whats important and what can wait!

thennnnn.......... now. everythings pretty good. i work.. i end up doing pretty good in school, and im just being ME. knowing frds that i should know, liking frds i should like, and partying when i should be. mwhahaha. awesome life i must say.



all im hoping is....... a good 2009 for everyone i love and care. doesnt have to be extremely outstanding and happy and LUCKY. (but it would be good if it was..hehe) but... i just want... everyone to have a happy one.






PLEASE.... just make 2009 happy for everyone i care for.